Nov 10, 2015

New beginnings

Today marks the one year anniversary of my month long stint in Guatemala.

That trip was the start of a lot of new chapters for me. Some of them good, some of them sad, and some of them unsteady. No matter the content of the chapters that trip stands as one of the best things that I have ever done.

Guatemala signaled a clean slate, a complete starting over of sorts. It may not have been exactly the way I had pictured it, but that's the way the proverbial cookie crumbled for me.

In this year I have learned a few things about myself.

1. I can travel to a foreign country and know no one and come home with some amazing memories and friends that I will never soon forget.

2. Traveling solo is something I thoroughly enjoy and am constantly looking for ways to continue.

3. Starting over is really scary.

4. It's okay to cry and be upset.

5. It's doubly okay to still not be okay.

6. Only you can decide when you are ready. Some days I am still not ready and am unsure that I may ever be ready.

7. Getting a puppy can fill a lot of emptiness.

8. Not knowing your direction or course in life is scary but you're not the only one.

9. Spending money you don't have to see friends you never see is absolutely worth it and I will never regret the time I got to spend with them.

10. I live my life by jumping first and looking later, wearing my heart on my sleeve, being a bit shy, and constantly chasing the sunrise on the dreams of wanderlust. Those things make me and there is nothing wrong with that.

11. It will all work out. It always does. Take a few steps back and breathe. Trust the journey but most of all trust yourself. Your heart always knows what you head refuses to see.

My year has been full of ups and downs with these new beginnings. It hasn't been easy and some days are awful, but each day I am a little bit stronger. I still don't know where I am going but I know the type of person that I want to be. Each day is a constant reminder to be that person.